Sunday, November 30, 2008
im really glad t11 came back so emo and impacted by the ocip trip! wish i had went however, but well it couldnt be done so...its enough emoing and staying at where i am.. the world isnt gonna slow down for me, so i gotta keep pushing, going, doing and reaching towards THE goal. ive been avoiding this for very long, but i guess this is goodbye t11. officially, for once. i hate to seem like im putting on a strong front. then again, maybe i am. but if i leave without feeling even a tinge of sadness, it would have been a lie.
i dont know about how the world views me for who i am now, and it doesnt matter already.. because at least i now know how i view myself. im gonnamiss you guys so much, and i know i havent wasted a year. urghh i need some emo pics and italic-ed words here.
and i know when january starts, esp on the 12th, its gonna be hell. i'll be back to drifting and having nothing to look forward to, which would give me tons of opportunity to emo.
oh well, i wouldnt know til then!
internet's down... im seriously pretty miserable that i cant talk to anyone casually on msn anymore. its just a huge sigh coming from within me, urghh.
Posted by keithc at 10:58 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2008
So.You screwed up.
God isnt to blame.
You cant avoid it, the many implications have amplified it.
Your soul wants to blame God. but you know that would get you no where.
you are still aware.
go back to your little corner.
go back to where it all began, the Ideal of solitude; wait.
For now, no one can change your mindset. you are once again weak, useless, mindless, last, drifting, quiet, silent.
Angry, but too weak to do anything about it.
Hurting, yet numb.
shocked, and still is.
disbelieving, but acknowledging.
doubting, yet surrendering.
on the fence perhaps, swaying. about to fall.
but one thing you have, you are still aware.
aware of the Truth.
aware of His love.
aware of the promises.
aware of hope.
what do you do?
do you stop to think, or carry on life as usual?
neither, for if you stop, God's work is hindered. if you carry on life as usual, you're in denial.
at least you arent hindered to show you are weak, finally.
You cant put on a show to be strong and let time pass, you know that.
You arent strong inside, you know that too.
You make the decision.
God's work prevails, you are but a branch,
a lump of clay,
a piece of mirror.
for The Vine to bear fruit,
for The Potter to mould,
for The Light to be reflected.
You would say: "Then why does God still blame us? For who resists his will?"
But who are you, O man, to talk back to God?
"Shall what is formed say to him who formed it, 'Why did you make me like this?' "
Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for noble purposes and some for common use?
You have let God down, and you are sorry.
you are still aware.
go back to your little corner.
go back to where it all began, the Ideal of solitude; wait.
Posted by keithc at 3:42 AM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Ezekiel 36: 22-30"Therefore say to the house of Israel, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: It is not for your sake, O house of Israel, that I am going to do these things, but for the sake of my holy name, which you have profaned among the nations where you have gone.
23 I will show the holiness of my great name, which has been profaned among the nations, the name you have profaned among them. Then the nations will know that I am the LORD, declares the Sovereign LORD, when I show myself holy through you before their eyes.
24 " 'For I will take you out of the nations; I will gather you from all the countries and bring you back into your own land.
25 I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your idols.
26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
27 And I will put my Spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.
28 You will live in the land I gave your forefathers; you will be my people, and I will be your God.
29 I will save you from all your uncleanness. I will call for the grain and make it plentiful and will not bring famine upon you.
30 I will increase the fruit of the trees and the crops of the field, so that you will no longer suffer disgrace among the nations because of famine.
------------------------------------------Psalm 51:10
"Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me."
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I leave things in bold for you to ponder on. God's promises, His blessings, His commandments, His plans.
In Ezekiel 36, the Lord reveals his plan for israel, His chosen nation, His royal priesthood.
In Psalm 51, David's prayer after being convicted of his sin with Bathsheba, one of the most-commonly-referred-to chapters in the bible assiociated with repentance.
Are we ready to acknowledge the wrong things going on in our lives before the Lord takes action on us? should someone come to tell us everything that's wrong in our lives before we admit, oh crap im wrong? the Lord will create in you a pure heart, a heart of flesh and not of stone, but first we need to ask.
What a great reminder as I attempted to design the tentative youth camp tshirt!
Get ready for Revival.
2 chronicles 7:14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
Posted by keithc at 10:18 AM
Friday, November 07, 2008
im in the darkness of my own shadow. i know its possible, but what does it truly mean to be in the light?
