Wednesday, April 25, 2007

a whole new meaning to life.

cause u broke me, u broke my affiliates, and now ur using me more then ever.

i'm happy! why was i even emo? why did i even harbour those thoughts... after all, i have felt your goodness... kick it out of me.

thank you for granting me this peace of heart and confidence. as well as seriousness, and greater understanding of this world you created.

hang on to what's eternal.

coldplaying.keith.

Posted by keithc at 12:33 AM

Monday, April 23, 2007

how i wish,

i really wish my pillow talks. ever since all these issues, its been absorbing all my tears.

ok. maybe it shouldnt talk. then it can just sit there, hear me rant. and shut up. just lemme say everything...

Posted by keithc at 5:55 AM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

my wrath burn against u, Amath.

i cant believe it. its the first time i'm fired up and totally pissed off with myself over my a maths test...
actually, i wouldnt be if i didt encounter the exact same problem with chemistry...
u know, i could... could have passed both tests... if not for a friggin 8-mark question which i screwed up callously or with a mental block.

i mltiplied the friggin bonds wrongly la, then got some endothermic reaction. its ok, i put that one-digit result at the back of my head, cause i know my mistake alr.
and then the a maths one was the worst! totally mental block. its like i KNOW how to do the question la.. even the 5-mark max min part... standard question... but i didnt know how to find some AREA of an isoceles triangle! when its just there, in my face. just like. divide the thing into 2 and use pythagoras theorem. frick laaaa. 8 marks... from 17.5 to 9.5.

today was the last straw alr... i will take no more nonsense from myself. this kinda mistakes... i ought to get killed. never before have i felt so so angry. i walked out of class straight after Amath at 3, bypassing all the dudes. then left straight home without lunch... wanted to re do the whole paper again, but then my dad came back from india, wanted to take my sis and i to visit my mum in hospital, but dun worry.. small issues la.

so visited her lo... very draggy, came home super tired... so i slept, and now i'm awake. gonna do the e math hw first... doubt i'll do the a math corrections today...

how am i gonna start studying when everyday has its issues and requires its naps...

tmr... wed right. think i wun be having anything on.. finally, another bright day to come home and start... pray that i'll have e energy to!
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saw wenny's blog... i did think i was one of the 2 dudes mentioned.. thought the 2nd guy really fit me... cause recently i've been really pmssy, well more like frustrated la... but i onli bugged him for one day.. so i was thinking how on earth could i bug him for so long.. but well, my mentality keeps changing, at one point its i dun care, another point is "lets do this together". its weird... dependin on what God brings on me, cause sometimes its just so direct... a message from the bible.

right now i'm right with god again, thats why the sustainability (so geoggy) is there. everyday read bible.. cant go wrong one la. maybe i'll act pmsy. just so i can concentrate better. tee.

coldplaying.keith.

Posted by keithc at 5:45 AM

Sunday, April 08, 2007

wheres my drive.

i cant go on.
i keep stoning.
wasting my time away searching for guitars, playing guitar and crapping with a math questions.
getting distracted. think i needa smash my com up.

drifting further and further away...

lord i need u back in me desperately.

i wanna smile tomorrow when i go to school!

i wanna stop worrying about the tests... cause theres just so much pressure...
its now or never keith. once ur results start shining, you wont stop. u can carry on ur path of good results... stressful. i want it. i so wanna understand every damn thing.

no keith. just #$%^&* it. why stress urself like that... go lie on your bed la. ur so tired... every minute, ur eyes are dreamy. about to close. someone turned the grey contrast up... everything's blurry...

someone's stretching ur eye muscles. ur head hurts cause u dun get enough sleep u moron.

you just woke up 1 hour ago from a 2 hour nap.. but ur so tired. simple. u still need more sleep...

a pile of worksheets lie strewn all over the table...
i move towards the table... sat on the chair.
and slouched my back over my bed.

whoa, so cooling. so soft. so smooth. smoother then the A4 papers on my table.
softer then the super soft rubber eraser.
i take my bolster. its heaven.
covering my eyes, another 2 hours pass by without me knowing.

i woke up.. hyped up.
looked at the papers... so rough. so messy. sian.
looked to my right. a black, shiny, attractive mass appears.
its body is sexy. its gonna sound great.

switched on the amp. and pedal switch.
turned the cabinet to vintage.
turned ambience to reverb 140.
turned amp volume to 4.
turned pedal volume knob to 100%.

play cranky tunes.

woo over. 1 hour has passed.

hmm lets see what i shall do on the com now... err
sian la. wenjie's blogged about emo stuff again. nat blogged something based on wenjie's blog. daniel's ranting about his ulcers. alvin hasnt updated. and derrick blogged something on emo bb boys. wadever. mence's still. wth. i dunno wad ur blogging about... so general..

1 week... bb has not gotten out of my head.

someone... find my key. and jack my motor.
cause i'm cranking up.

Posted by keithc at 5:47 AM

Monday, April 02, 2007

emo talk 2

i'm feeling extremely emo. maybe i'm starting to think what will i do now that my fridays are free. going home just will feel so different.. the need for us eating dinner together is still there...

untitled
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how can this happen to me
i'm made by mistake
got no where to run
but life goes on....

and i'm fading away....
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gosh it fits doesnt it. and then... there's also

it ends tonight
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well, it did end that night.

NOOOOOOOO STOP THINKING ABOUT BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBbb