i actually had a good topic to blog about after reading my first book of PHILOSOPHY hahaha. after reading it and understanding it, i then realised it was actually a starter KI book. not because the librarian told me it was meant for J1 KI students, but because i understood it. then i realised all the previous emo posts i posted on WHY WE LIVE, WHY WE STUDY are all pretty noob concepts we all have to grasps throughout our journey of life. and we learn this on our own, spending time with ourselves and just thinking. philosophy books get me going on a mind journey, something other books dont. oh well but im still so noob to learn much from those books, its like it goes in in one ear and comes out from the other.
im not sure about the masses, but im sure KI students all graduate jc with a certain form of idea of life and all. and of course if we believe in God, then well it'll be different from the norms.
ANTI- CLIMAX: taken from dionne's facebook profile. "i am dionne,i am 17 but i feel as though i am 14. A bird came into my house yesterday and i was petrified.I am scared of fishes and birds.Birds are feathery and fishes are scaly.Yucks.i still love animals even though i am quite scared of some."
I TOTALLY BURST OUT LAUGHING HALF WAY??
hmm im surely learning from Mrs Tie. to put a break in between boring parts of a lecture (blog post) so people would keep wide awake...blog later la now no moood again.
im in love with. the prs...
Posted by keithc at 8:29 PM
Sunday, September 21, 2008
This is my prayer for the weeks to come, and for the indians suffering in India at the moment. http://www.gfa.org/latestnews
micah 7: 7-9
But as for me, I watch in hope for the LORD, I wait for God my Savior; my God will hear me.
Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the LORD will be my light.
Because I have sinned against him, I will bear the LORD's wrath, until he pleads my case and establishes my right. He will bring me out into the light; I will see his righteousness.
I have decided I have resolved To wait upon you Lord My rock and redeemer shall not be moved I'll wait upon you Lord
Pre Chorus As surely as the sun will rise You'll come to us As certain as the dawn appears
Chorus You'll come let your glory fall As you respond to us Spirit reign flood our hearts With holy fire again
Verse 2 We are not shaken we are not moved We wait upon you Lord Our Mighty deliverer my triumph and truth I'll wait upon you Lord
Bridge Chains be broken Lives be healed Eyes be opened Christ is revealed
Posted by keithc at 2:18 AM
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Psalm 121: 1-8
I lift up my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from?
My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.
He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.
The LORD watches over you— the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
The LORD will keep you from all harm— he will watch over your life;
the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.
if you keep reading the word, God will speak. even if God DIDNT speak, he WILL speak. keep reading the word!
Posted by keithc at 7:38 AM
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
im not relentless enough at times to do things KNOWING someone else is always there for me, KNOWING im working towards something eternal, KNOWING my life is safe and im rescued. I need You to come in, and just show yourself already. if not i wont be able to live it up.
Posted by keithc at 12:17 AM
Sunday, September 14, 2008
what in the world. i cant do this alone, but where's my help.
Posted by keithc at 12:31 AM
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
i regret not blogging about YMLC earlier, and now i'm blogging about something not so nice. i opened my inbox and somehow, my worries/burdens/responsibilities and all flashed out nicely in front of my eyes. woooo camp, comm, enthu ymlc friends, cell, worship min and all just a whole lot of things. and all of a sudden i have to say stuff, i have to make decisions. i cant say i dont know, or just ask "what do u think?" im the most indecisive person ever, not being able to decide where to eat, what to buy, what toppings on my ice cream or what flavour of yoghurt ice cream, although usually there will only be two. and i cant get back to the studying mood. i dont care. i wont use being sick as an excuse. im pushing backk and im going all out against my flow. im not going to feel comfy, and i know something is wrong if i do feel too comfy. lets goo... pushhh...
Posted by keithc at 5:29 AM
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
i am so dead... im feeling near hopeless. though i know its not hopeless. but no this time round it feels like my mind aint strong enough to overcome emotions.
my holidays are up... what have i achieved in these 3 days? ive not been hardcore mugging like i promised myself. though i know i have been studying, its just not enough and im not concious enough to keep awake and alert for just more than 2 hours in a row. its always like this, how can i leave to go to YMLC without possibly thinking of studies and all?
and then its the same thing... dad comes, mum comes... nag on me and my focus/priorities/commitments... just like mrs tie's first response when i told her i cant make it for chem remedial on friday. i hate myself for not justifying my commitments. ppl will judge me and say "this keith ah think he do so much for God. but his results like crap. never study one". i used to think its better for me to be in church than at home studying, but no, because God reveals himself in my studies and is happy when i do it for him. im praying and really hope God will make me right in the sense to handle my commitments well. with the amount of ministry or commitments i have, should come the results as well.
hmm.. why do we live. i remember asking someone this year randomly on msn, "why do you live?" i was feeling kinda gay and high so i just popped a random question. my friend, though it seems like he/she is religious and has a strong sense of purpose, but he/she couldnt reply me properly... it came out like... "liddat lah. i dunno. to do well? support my family?" other than to be obedient and fillial to your parents, what else do you live for? yourself? when ur gonna die anyway?
if at the end there will be nothing, nothing to be gained, then what incentive do we have for living? In literature lecture today mr kang was right in saying he should apply what we learn into our lives. the ppl of "brave new world" never asked why. and the totalitarian state does all it can to prevent them from asking "why". in the end, people live to work, and work for the sake of getting things moving, getting economy flourishing. who ultimately benefits?
today delci told me her teacher MR KEITH TAN's story. first, as students, we're good. then special or whatever. then lastly exceptional. the whole lecture theatre was told/ encouraged to be exceptional. haha and as a typical lit student, i would question. if everyone was exceptional then who really stands out? we'll all be equal, uniform. excellent but so what?
if we live to live, or live because we're too scared to commit suicide, then we are seriously blind. if we live for ourselves, we obviously havent seen the fact that everything will be gone when we die. if we live because we know there's something more to life and we're waiting for it to come as we slowly discover it, ah thats something. keep waiting, you'll discover it.
i dont know what i'd do if i had nothing to live for. i asked myself this question back in sec3. why was my world forcing me to study? no i didnt want to. i didnt want to conform even though i knew i could. miss wong nagging, mummy nagging, daddy nagging. all want me to do well. give me solid reasons to i'd say, and they'd say for your future, for your own good. take all that hypocrisy back i'd say, i dont care for my future. i'll die anyway.
but somewhere deep in a corner of my head i knew God was watching. i knew Jesus cared. i knew what i needed to do in order to be back with Jesus again. So i told myself again, i renewed my commitment of "whatever i do, i do it for You", i studied for Christ. when i said "i'm studying for God", i dint know what it meant at first. but now i see it as a direct outcry, a clear sign that for the sake of Christ i am doing something i dont enjoy. now i see it as an opportunity for Christ to reveal himself through the stretching of my character and the results that will come. How he'd deliver me and how he'd work through me. now i see it in terms of my future because the more i'd achieve in the future, the more God will be glorified. and even if i dont manage to achieve, i know God has been with me all the way. what can be more comforting than that? I am more than a conqueror through Him who loves me. (romans 8:37)
stop studying, or even living for a while. we need to question ourselves "why", and stop doing things because we have to. we have to do things because we want to.
