Thursday, October 23, 2008
i feel weak and shattered when im slapped by the world.
if i were to ask myself what have i learned this entire year, did i waste 1 year of my life for nothing, i would say no. Fairfield has been a place really well protected. yes you fairsians better know, that the school's discipline and culture has kept you protected for very long. long enough for you to mature and understand how really wrong and weird the real world is out here.
how complex people's lives can really be, and the hidden underlying problems that are so well hidden, and yet consumes them from the inside out. the transition period from puberty to late-teens incur too much change.
no, im better.
no, i will not give in.
no, i am strong on my own. i gotta rely on myself.
no, i justify my actions because i am pissed off, angry, misunderstood, the list goes on.
where will and resiliance triumphs, layers of indifference and hardness builds up, causing an immunity to morally wrong actions and consequences. and we're not talking about religion or biblical stuff here, its just from humanity's point of view.
then again, how justified is humanity? but thats besides the point.
they are experiencing emptyness inside, but slowly declare themselves independant of help, love, and truth as the layers harden. they become strong.
people dont like to be told what to do.
people dont like to reveal their weaknesses.
people dont like to acknowledge their weaknesses.
people dont like to correct their wrongs, and find more reason for justifying them.
people lack, but we always seek. trial and error or truth, decide now.
being strong doesnt guarantee Victory.
i dont need examples here. fairsians, you'll know when you leave. to the world,
he who has ears, let him hear.
Posted by keithc at 9:25 AM
