Friday, October 03, 2008

Am i ensuring i am getting daily intake through my quiet time? why have so many doubts found themselves into my head just today?

am i only sustained by ministry, and hence look forward to every sunday?
or support from friends in ministry?
or encounters with God on sundays?
or maybe i've just been feeling good when i recite things i memorised and 'indoctrinated' myself from the Word?
why havent i been having good qt for the past 2 days? i feel unatural, unconcious and out of place.

Maybe God kept himself from me for a reason? i'm sure not everyday's QT will be like this.
has philosophy led me to these questions and doubts? yes.
will i find my answers? yes.
will God show himself? He will.

philosophy has challenged me to source physically that our God is real. however i have this feeling that in the end, it would boil back down to me. This God is an all powering, unfathomable and indescribable God. if i cant understand Him, i cant prove Him. Understanding will increase, but will never be complete. Now i understand where Cutter came from, and all the struggles for those who know there is a God, but wish to find OCULAR proof.

i can only offer my belief now, because testimonies dont prove much in the eyes of the world.

John 12:37-41
The Jews Continue in Their Unbelief

Even after Jesus had done all these miraculous signs in their presence, they still would not believe in him. This was to fulfill the word of Isaiah the prophet:
"Lord, who has believed our message
and to whom has the arm of the Lord been revealed?"

For this reason they could not believe, because, as Isaiah says elsewhere:
"He has blinded their eyes
and deadened their hearts,
so they can neither see with their eyes,
nor understand with their hearts,
nor turn—and I would heal them." Isaiah said this because he saw Jesus' glory and spoke about him.


i cant explain God to non believers using a Christian's mindset. i can only proclaim.
God, you have to intervene in tough cases. Show your glory in due time, to answer my few questions, and the many questions from so many others in the world.

Posted by keithc at 8:19 AM