Tuesday, August 12, 2008
nonono.. its never enough.
the Lord is showing me more and more of all my flaws.. the things i've overlooked. the better i think i am, the bigger the flaw in me grows.
i wonder if "i think, therefore i am" is a valid quote for christians. because you can never think your own way into success or freedom. if all comes from your own head, it is indeed risky and dangerous.
i thank the Lord for revealing himself more and more to me this week. how i've lost out so much in so many areas. the reminder of who i am in church, the seriousness of certain problems i totally overlooked. the desperation and sincerity i used to have for our AYM. have i gotten all frustrated at other things to overlook all these? Joel has been doing lots for me so as to aid me in not burning up anymore, but in doing my best elsewhere, somehow other things still have to be sacrificed. so many things, in fact. the important things to other people have been lost in the making..
when i look at it, its almost impossible to fit all of our responsibilities into 24 hours.
our work/school. though its dreaded, it has to be done.
discipleship duties, which involves constant quiet time.
mentoring and fellowship, which involves communion with peers.
seeking for the lost.
but no, it is possible. i just need to do my small part and rely on Him to provide me with the ability to everyday. Grace in school as well.
Dear Lord i need you to sustain me. with the door you opened in me, give me the strength to walk through it bravely as well. amen.
Posted by keithc at 7:18 AM
