Friday, June 27, 2008

wooooootss back to blogging cause i feel like it...
cause exams are overr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and usually i'd emo after every exam.. but this exam i dont know... it may be cause i didnt put in my very best, or it may be cause i'm giving myself lee way.. after all i'm clueless about econs and lit still. how to study, how to answer??
for math, it has been e same problem, nothing new.. just lack time and lack practice.
they say u cant piah a levels last min. i'm wondering if it'll be the same as sec3... so busy until cannot catch up, til the last min then everything fits.. if that were to happen to me next year, maths is so gone!
and chinese.. i need xuhui and ian to spur me on.. there's totally no sense of struggle for me... ahhh..
nonetheless its over.. i guess i needa change my attitude towards chinese totally... A orals are just next monday btw... wad in the world... hope they ask about mas selemat or myannmar... pls spare me from politics and conservation.

but rly, this time i'm not emoing or creating a new blogskin. i doubt i will even after the results collections..

i've been meeting howkiat and janice very often this week, for ice cream (yes i pissed my dad off cause i came back late for dinner:() and shopping for retro clothes on thursday. thanks ariel for organising! we should all take turns to organise activities!! many times we see ppl asking around but dont bother to thank them after all the effort they've made. lois for the cycling outing, and joel for the many supper offers... thank God for them and great bonding. looking forward to this sunday's retro theme, i hope its gonna be a hit for the youth and something that will welcome many others as well!

today there was the trackers alumni gathering, theme on "how has your journey of faith been?"
pastor kaiming got me to share for no reason, and i just came up with smth on the spot, noting to myself again, that so evidently has my life changed and i shouldnt be thinking i'm still the same, lonely emo one again. this year i've gained a different kind of victory, and though i may not have entirely won, i would say my faith has increased by leaps and bounds and there has been some "overcoming of the world", cause we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us:)

a short while back, i was thinking if all these regurgitation of verses and remembering about Christ's spirit in me was all done through indoctrination and exposure to the faith from young... the more i thought about it the more i wanted to believe that this faith is humanly possible. but no, the holy spirit still told me that it lives, it breathes and it gives me new insight, not me who gives myself insight. how could i have doubted that the holy spirit is actually just myself? no, it is from God! the times where it convicts me, the times where God's love just flows and the times where it gives me strength to stand up against my fears, enemies, hard teachings. i believe it lives and breathes in me.

the trackers gathering was fantastic, with rly thought involking speeches by uncle david and pastor kaiming.. that the valleys are where we develop our character. i suppose this is true, even for non christians.. its the tough times that make us stronger. just that... "strength" here is defined differently from the non christian and the christian.. wanna know more? ask me!
Got to meet up with ben, michele, ronda, dionne, jolyn, glenda, shawn, pkm, elizabeth, meiping, kheng, not to mention CHRISTABEL whom i see everyday... though jared and eugene didnt go... haiz. and i realised trackers is actually dominated by girls. or perhaps girls are just more emo and are more likely to turn up for such gatherings..
worship was cool with wanlin and sheldon. though it was seriously last minute and i didnt know what i was playing, explaining why it was so noisy and loud... i hope the time of worship was still good and refreshing for all of us trackers to worship in one body:)

playing the guitar is really fun and awesome recently... i'm gonna be playing for 3 weeks straight, this sun and the next two... i hope i dont burn out seriously... my burn level is super low ever since school started. gotta keep praying for a perseverant spirit and strength to sustain.. in case fire runs out..

pics will be up next time! misss all the trackers so much! stupid daye.. and vicky..
cant wait for tmr man... but will needa cab to church again. wooot heavy..

Posted by keithc at 10:58 AM