Friday, May 30, 2008

Reasons why a keith shouldnt bodybuild.

i was totally in some state of stupidness after i quit my bodybuilding mindset. after 2 days of it.
yes, thats right, 2 days. when holidays started i told myself yes i'm gonna take this time to exercise, go gym, keep fit, work out, build muscles, and hopefully do my pull ups to pass napfa after june.
so on monday, mark and i went to pine grove to swim our brains out... then used the gym for a while.
next day muscles ached, whoa shiok.... felt good.

til i realised what bodybuilding is really like.. it means no freedom of food, no late nights, hours spend at the gym every week. to max it out, you gotta spend money on protein powder for best results. its not that i dont have the discipline to do it, its the hols man!... i am capable of it.. but why do we want great bodies... hms. because of this, i quit..
i guess the answer is because we are always constantly wanting to improve our physical self...
if you look at it from another point of view, u cant even eat chicken rice. you cant stay 2 hours longer online to talk to a dear late night friend. you are basically wasting time at the gym, cause nothing gets in your head.

ok some might argue gymming in the long run does make you.. well. more determined, focused. built a perseverant character, because when you have the mind to push your body to its max, usually you can do it for whatever situations or rubbish you're in... be it problems faced in sch, homework, etc. somehow, bodybuilders to me seem different.

having a nicer body also builds up confidence... but why does it build up confidence? i also dunno.
when i feel toned, i just feel stronger, like i'm a cooler guy. there's no basis at all for a feeling like that... not that i will be able to get more girls?? not that i want any girl at this point of my life!? not that i'll be able to look better than the guy next door, whatever for? hey dude. you're skinny and i'm buff.. haha i feel good. ahhahaha. NOT.

evaluate the confidence you gain from being physically complete. is it true confidence? its the same kind of confidence ppl gain by cutting a 2nd eyelid, getting a bust enhancement. its all momentary, and sooner or later people will still see you for who you truly are. and you know, you know you're still the same as ever inside.

its a very selfish thing, in that your body being huge and sexy doesnt really affect other people's mindsets, only yours. perhaps it makes them jealous. but jealous over what?

ok, NS is a great reason... but still. i just need to keep fit, dont i? do i really need to be buff?
lets just say what got me started off is nothing more than peer pressure and the need to do my pull ups. because i really am not aiming for girls. perhaps i will do it again next year in preps for NS, but that will be next year's affairs.

this is me consolidating my thoughts:
there are needs everywhere.. people who need ministering to. homework that needs to be done. exams to be studied for. as well as all the church stuff put together, which includes daily quiet time, praying for the church. putting others before yourself... time is a factor.
furthermore, my confidence comes from the Lord, in whom i trust and believe will provide for me. he will scrape me through NS, napfa. And in his time, maybe even provide my soulmate.
i gotta learn to rely less on myself, cause no human effort can attain what God hasnt placed in His will..

oh well, ministry!!!! :)

hehe i hope this gets some of my friends thinking, especially those who are guilty of not being content with their own bodies! rmb you were fearfully and wonderfully made.. no matter how horrible you think you look, there will be a bunch who will still think highly of you. its not all about the looks, more of who you truly are inside; what you say, do, do not say, do not do, all reflect your personality.
knowing all these really does bring comfort to me.

okay, after this post, there will definitely be a small bunch of people who will go, hahah what a loser mindset.. weakling.
look at yourself, everyone is weak in some areas of their lives..
you cant have everyone loving you everytime, right?

Posted by keithc at 11:13 AM