Sunday, May 25, 2008
okayy its sunday and i'm tired but accomplished:)
somehow, there's a disturbance within me for the whole of today... a slight one that feels like a huge burden, well i suppose it was due to just the sermon, or the church... ytd at the hillsong concert. but other than that, everything's fantastic...
its so nice for the youth to want to attend the concert! 28 of us altogether and i'm so happy... never regretted helping them get ticss. the worship was awesome... so good that i was really tired.. but at my most tiredd point, the worship leader said "we're just getting started".. nice man.
some really disturbing things to me...
1. come buy t shirts and cds!
2. sermon
3. "you guys want more?" YESHHHH
"lets sing some hymms!" yay.... yay...
i mean that is why you dont just go scream for more when the dude asks you. cause the worship was great and more than enough for me and i'm sure God was pleased... we shouldnt say we want more worship when we just want more music.
but lets face it, when its a concert, people just want to jump and have fun... so actually, the dude shouldnt have posed such a worship-oriented question to everyone... kinda takes ppl on a short guilt trip.
besides the fact that they were commerciallising like mad, (despite alr collecting 5 bucks per ticket, yes) the sermon was disturbing to me... yes to me. i wont put it on the blog for now, it deserves a proper one on its own.
following which i sent the guys off before hillsong played Solution, and then went back to get eagles conference fliers from ronda.. dball and janan were there too.. took pics, saw dionne's cute brother who actually looks quite old and mature already... hahaha. the pics do him injustice. or the presence of dionne just kiddifies him hahhaa...
of course, wanlin and jing wen...
then met delci, i cant believe she actually planned to go back alone, thats like huh! so late and so far away!
but we discussed about the sermon.. i suppose it rly did affect many of us in a way... and also how our hols are gonna be. well its much better for me than for her anyway.. perhaps with the time given to study for mids...
but all in all i'm so sure the youth got to worship well! Even today when we were playing i felt the holy spirit move... and even i could worship while playing and to be honest, i only played 2 wrong notes today... which is a great improvement:) AND my tone rocked... wish dil could have played though... but chinese comes first of course, studies is equally important to God.
i dont know, but i just feel its a bit hard to invite ppl to Agape, esp if they dont stay within the west boundary. ok fine, its just tough getting people to church in general, but its still great cutter got to go to trinity today, ptl. i was a bit discouraged at night, but then that is where the whole idea of serving in worship kicked it. we serve for God, not for man. we do it for Him alone, no one else. Its not about showmanship, its not about standing upfront on stage. its just getting the worship and God's message across. immediately the feeling just left... whatever burdens, whatever feelings of being pangsehed. nothing else mattered more than Him.
in trackers i learned a term, its called "centre".
its means to place jesus at the centre of your life, where all focus is on him alone.
sometimes we serve for OTHER YOUTH's BENEFIT, sometimes we serve cause THERES NO ONE ELSE, sometimes we serve cause WE'RE POTENTIAL PROS, AND WE"RE SPOTTED, sometimes cause WE LOVE PLAYING GUITAR/DRUMS/SINGING. but no, those are only reasons to start you off in ministry. when ur in, "CENTRE-ing" is what we are called to do. there can only be one reason why we serve, and its because we love jesus. there can only be one way we get the strength to do so, that it is to run on his spirit, if not we're sure to fall. i've been through ups and downs in the worship ministry, and well,
"how to get a steady source of sustainance" is what i'm exploring now, and yeah, i'm giving myself time to learn too. QT isnt easy to do everyday, plus the devil does attack at times. but we know God works for the good of those who love him:) thank God for a great service today.
kinda looking forward to the church camp... family-fied theme. ppl of all ages doing same activities... who knows if something would happen in my family? today we chose group names... and i suggested "love" out of the list. reason's pretty simple...
somehow doubts on how usual family overseas trips always turn out are getting into my head, definitely calls for more prayer. i believe its gonna be a new and exiting experience:)
basketball in the afternoon was fun too.. i'm just getting too larthagic to move much haha. but before i even broke the unfit barrier, it rained.. oh well.
enjoy ur holidays folks! while i get rdy to go to bed and wake up for chinese remedial tmr -.- btw, dillon's having chinese A levels tmr... cant imagine whats going through his head now... probably nothing cause he's asleep. all the best bro!
Posted by keithc at 10:19 AM
