Tuesday, May 20, 2008
nowadays i'm rly talking lesser. even i'm starting to neglect my emo feelings and all, i dun seem to be able to blog lotsa thoughts already.
anw, why is it that God doesnt reveal himself to everyone? indeed, you choose to be chosen. but placing me in a christian family is really something i should be greatly thankful about. and then i still struggle, i still ask for so much, i still sin.
i'm already in a much better position than many people in the world...having a faith in Him who is higher than all created things. having experienced his love and mercy first hand. knowing this God is real, and i wont be stumbled by what people say... and yet i still feel so human. what has happened to my calling? could it be that when i'm in it i feel like its getting routinal, and i'm just living day to day, only waking up on sundays.
perhaps not, perhaps its just today that feels this way.
it seems like a sense of hopelessness that has brought about this heck-care attitude of mine. the relac one korner attitude.. theres no urgency and no rush...
and i'm afraid i'm about to be broken real badly very soon... if its in His will..
bonnie is right, if u cant reveal everything in your blog, then it totally defeats the purpose of having a blog. then again, why do i need a blog to cast my cares and burdens out? another human factor.
my head screams its time to mug... but my soul screams no.. i got stuff to settle with my friend. his name starts with j.
Posted by keithc at 10:28 PM
