Sunday, April 13, 2008

OKAY... say say say... its been a great week though i've officially flunk both my math and econs test.
i wun be blogging about today if cutter didnt ask me to.. sometimes u blog too much and ppl find u attention seeking but what la, u wanna read my blog thats why u come right! hahaha...

i'm beginning to wonder if i really do have a split personality... either i really do, or my moods take on the extremes, from dead serious to dead emo to lively funny... and now i'm lively funny haha..
slowly i hope as i grow, to eliminate the dead emo feeling, and just get serious and evaluative over my life should anything go wrong, before picking myself up again as quickly as i can.

life isnt measured where u are, or what you are, or how successful you are, but rather how you live every single day to its fullest..
so why emo for one week, if you can emo in 1 day and live the other 6 days happily? its making your time on earth here productive:) of course negative feelings and emo gushes pull you down, and usually i'd ask God to take it away... whether it goes away immediately or not its up to his grace, and this week it didnt stay or last long enough for me to claim this week a horrible one!

ok heres when life started being more fun in class last week, and it was on wednesday onwards...
on wednesday.. guitar ensemble is becoming fun and challenging because i'm with this bunch of pros and it spurs me on to learn faster... ahaha. and this girl cheryl in my cca is obsessed over writing notes on scores, so i just ask her to right everything for me hahaha... i think i am improving in my skills even though i may not having the time to practice at home... and i hope these skills will show themselves in ministry soon:)

and on friday night... was quite a shocking night cause i declined going to planetshakers concert.. ronda and jacon asked me but it was just too inconvenient and far... i'm glad jacon got touched and all as well, must have been really great. and i was brooding because SOMEONE couldnt have dinner with me and SOMEONE couldnt have dinner with me too. and SOMEONE went to planetshakers with her niam sister... niamniamniam.
so i was alone at home, knowing i'd emo cause no one else was there and everyone else was having fun elsewhere, i decided to study the night away at my uncle's house.
BUT joel called me for dinner with alvin.. woo we went out and he drove us to anchorpoint then holland... we discussed about serious stuff, sharing problems and all.. i must say joel is one guy who is really helping me to grow.. having inputs from a full-grown adult alvin is also great and i feel very important when i'm amongst adults...
NOT TO MENTION, the 8-bucks-one-scoop ice cream TOTALLY made my week... ok its insane la but once in a while.. with spare cash in my wallet...

saturday was worship prac for sunday, and i felt like i'm losing a lot of drive when i'm playing normally in worship... i'm supposed to be the band leader, and yet many things arent working out and i dont feel the huge burden to rectify issues... could it be because i have too many commitments i cant fully concentrate on every single thing? nonetheless it was glorious music and great worship, but i need my enthu-ness... hmm. i'm sorry corrine if i didnt do my best part as a band leader... and leaving u in dilemas or having lotsa stress..

the rest of the day was wasted, brooding over how tim hugh was having his worship conference at 35 bucks at faith methodist church and i didnt sign up!! andrew offered me a place but it was still pointless selling books there but unable to listen to what he had to say... urghh i'm totally envious of delci and her church who signed them all up man...
its ok, delci you zombie you better lend me those notes sometime! i cant believe i missed out something so vital and could be of great help to my ministry...

oh well and today on open sunday our various ministries presented and it was fun because i got to expose alvin, janice, ariel and dillon in front of the youths! i made them answer "how is my experience like and how have i changed ever since i joined the worship ministry" and their replies were nothing but encouraging and i'm sure it has impacted youths one way or another... hahaha. zheyuen and sean are my potential new members, PTL!
and worship min meeting was today too, it was the first one and eugene rly set things down straight.. it felt serious and i'm sure we all learned a lot as well.. i'm beginning to feel uber encouraged more and more... hahaha..

lets hope tomorrow wont pull me down, its gonna be a monday, the worst day of the week ahhaha... ok lets end this with some pics.. i chose today to camwhore with church ppl. cause my blog really lacks church content...

for all who have been wondering who my girlfriend ARIEL was, there!!! hahahha... he's one of the best budds in church and also everyone's drummer boy!