Sunday, March 02, 2008
finally my first real week of jc is over. its really getting intensive.
i gotta count my blessings and thank God for putting my trackers' friend, christabel, and so many other christians in my class... i do think they are neccessary in my class... as cj's pretty whacky in the culture and language. i can have a group of j2 boys coming in my class to check out who are the chio girls in my class... crap. was feeling so crappy la.. but what could i do when the leader of that gang is a repeating j2 that's in my class? i really hope things like this dont happen again.. and with fwords flying around.. its obviously different from fairfield. everywhere's different from fairfield... so i hope at least christabel would guide me back if i ever turn away and turn into some paikia.
i love my subjects now, econs lit math. it provides an excellent balance of boredom, interest and challenge. and h1 chem is just extra la. but i realised i love lit so much i wont be changing my subs to h2 chem and h1 lit anymore... thats right, i dont give two hoots about h2 chem.. i know i can reaffirm that because there's also a number of ppl telling me not to change...
also.. reading ppl's blogs about AC... i'm convinced i wont be able to survive there... (again, no matter what other ppl tell me) because its obvious many ppl dont know me at all. they think i can cope, they think i sure can. i mean with God of course anything's possible la...
but that doesnt mean i shouldnt thank Him for leaving me in CJ. its definitely a place i feel comfortable in.. if i compare myself to being in trip science last year... arts is definitely my route.. :)
not that i love the sexual elements in literature okay!! but its just more emotional, more based on feelings that i somehow like relating to it. i regret not taking lit in sec3/4!
now, therefore, while the youthful hue,sits on my skin like morning dew..
ok that is actually a poem about some dude persuading his mistress to sleep with him!! super artistic right!! thats just one example.. haha. some more explicit man.
and then the graduation night for trackers... haiz it was actually quite sad.. but everyone was like smiley and all... nvm, i'm sure very soon everyone will be missing it... i already am! haha...
it was great with the worship and all (my apologies for not being to play, and as a result there was 1 less guitarist) nevertheless it was great worship...
and the camwhoring session was cool too man... suddenly everyone wants shots.. it was so sad la as if the next time we see each other would really be in heaven. dionne ball got emo and gave me some hand painted photo frame and my lady killer photo.. but its the effort that touched me la, it was rly handpainted with superman logos... hahaha.. must have took quite some time man..
and michele also wrote something short and sweet for me... man these emo ppl will make it far.. i also wanted la.. but gave up after 2 cards. cause rly no time..
had comm meeting on sat again... it was the longest and most taxing ever... and was feeling particularly disturbed about why ppl cant get prayer into their heads... even today, i got news they didnt pray again (ok my bad for not being around) but prayer is basic and part and parcel! i think we should just scrap it. then maybe we'll seriously learn the importance of prayer...
went to trinity meth today... first time i actually missed my own church service for such a minor issue. usually its either sick, or go overseas...
but well i made full use of it to learn from whatever service/lessons they provided... usually i'd screw up if i dont go to church to absorb and soak in God's prescence... but ronda was right, trinity could do that for me as well.
ronda is this crazy girl who by her own mouth could persuade me to get out of agape for 1 day... haiz. but its true that i wont be seeing them much anymore la.. whats more my church, being all the way in the west, its gonna be tough for any tracker to visit hahha... i wont post any pics we took during the farewell... if not i'll be sad again lol. and also because i havent received 60% of them yet. zzz. and 20% of them were ppl squeezing my cheeks. wads with my cheeks la... but i admit i realised they have become more stretchy since last year.. must be putting on weight badly. its ok! thats what jc is for.. help me lose weight for sure hahaha...
lastly, i'm finally coping pretty well... its true that a relationship would just ruin everything at this point in time. its kinda divine how i convinced myself to let it go. and managed to let it go. i guess the holy spirit does work in miraculous ways.. and i am able to once again really lay everything down in front of his cross..
why do we get infatuations when we know true love cant start now? this is horrendous...
really wishing you well, and all the best for both you and i in our studies and all. whether you know it or not it doesnt really matter, but in everything seek him first, and his kingdom.
-keith
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