Sunday, March 23, 2008

another bhb quote from me to Joel!

"at first ur damn chui... then you choose to wait on the Lord. He may not deliver you or speak to you the day after, maybe only after 3 days. then in those 3 days of waiting, wont life suck!!?"
-saturday night.

sunday morning i took the stand to ask for more infilling of the Holy Spirit. the champion and comforter in my life... i needed more, more and more. cause there's no end to how much holy spirit you can get..
its not that my cup isnt full. or that it HAD overflowed and is maxxed out to the brim.
but i want it to be overflowING. constantly spilling out everywhere, thats the power that we know God is capable of giving in his time.
i remember how i used to pour my 4/5 troubles at any point in my life to God one day of the week. yes, i'm revealing how much i used to cry alone. once a week.
but since this started it felt like honeymoon, i havent been doing that, or giving all my problems to God.. i have been empowered but i forgot the most important thing. i can believe "God u are there so u know wad, yes my life rocks." but the fact is that i have not been telling him.

theres no limit to how deep your relationship with God can be. there's also no end to how much holy spirit he can pour fourth on you. and no end to how much tears can flow once u decide to make his spirit yours.
i know God would have came either way, be it 3 days, or next week. but he chose today in church... for some reason, the spirit extremely powerfully today... and i cried for the first time in my church today. suddenly, as the speaker spoke i am suddenly reminded at the many problems/stresses i face. and honeymoon was over.
back to how problematic my family actually really is, back to how impossible it seems to survive next year's As and be serving at the same time. back to what i'm organising/planning and how i could do better in class. and of course, small, matters of the heart which actually seem huge to most guys... i'm sorry to classmates reading this... i kinda lost my freewill in blogging knowing so many ppl actually read my blog whahha...

thanks be to God la, who chose to speak to me today, and not leave me in hell for the next 3 days or week or so. i'm glad i didnt turn to the dark side, but chose the tears and the route back to the Lord. its like right in front of my face today! free holy spirit! more than what you already have! come come take it. He just loves us so much...

why wait? Mai tu liao just go grab it la.

sometimes we think too much. i know in the midst of the congregation my youth members who know they need this... they need their breakthrough. they need more. they cant see where God is leading them. but then this phrase will come "nahh not ready yet." "nahh no use one la". "got enough le."
i mean.. ok la the 3rd quote is valid.. it means you know you're really empowered at this point of your life. but why not ready? just go for whats best... free also..

Joel urged me to hope that saturday night. my last post ended with "hope". this morning the message was about it... and my heart was compelled by romans 5:5,

"And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us."

doesnt sound too straight. basically, if we hope, God wont destroy it. it will come... cause he loves us.

Jiayou to classmates who emoed at my emo posts... lol hope ur encouraged at my encouraging post!

Posted by keithc at 6:38 AM