Friday, August 31, 2007
firstly, to readers... lol at least i still have gotten 4 tags, from ppl whom i never expected to be the ones regularING my blog. dun read my blog. its not nice... horrible stuffs written here, and my worser side is released here.
i guess that was it? stupid dilemas. stupid decisions.
i wanna move on... i wanna move on into JC or poly and just leave this whole mess already... but then the primer's thing comes back in. honestly, my dad's damn pissed off with CCAs. he's damn pissed off with me being so hardcore... why? he doesnt see the rewards coming.. he feels it isnt worth it. but i do... and now my dad's another obstacle on my way to being a primer. OR IS HE?
or issit me who doesnt want to come back and serve? its so friggin demanding alr. it can only get more demanding... and yet. with JC/poly in mind, issit EVEN possible for an asshole like me who has no good connections, no fond memories and no time management to handle something like that?
now can say interested la, but virtually, its impossible...
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screw self esteem.
the rest had soccer today... i did want to go, but i already had something planned well beforehand... oh well. and i really hate justifying why i dont go.... i mean its true i wanna spend time with u, but its like. dun come also nevermind, okay lor...
and i shout it here, i declare it, i dont LOVE soccer. there's only one friggin reason why i kick balls. and that's because of you.
but if one day i neglect soccer totally, it'll just mean one thing... that i've lost it all. i'm moving on... and i cant make a decision at all.
stay and mend, or leave and forget?
after all, i'm not in your league...
Posted by keithc at 7:44 AM
