Sunday, June 03, 2007

more friendly issues

these words are stuck in my head currently.
"you guys are spoilers. it was a good trip with helping out the children, and we wanted to finish up nicely. but because of this disgusting act, you spoiled everything"
"everyone's going to go home with bad memories, bad feelings"
"how can we even come to vietnam with a heart of service when we are doing all these wrong things? will God take it as service to him?"
"you guys have wasted the entire trip"
- miss ong.

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back to friendly issues, frankly i'm fine with everyone, cept just one dude... one dude who was a real pain in my heart. one dude who deliberately outcasts me and just daos me openly. dude, i knew all the while. i've tried being nicer, being closer. i almost gave up, i tried being alone, outcasting myself instead of ruining your life with ur friends.
frankly, if i were not keith, i'd have chided you. where's god in everything.... are u struggling with issues u should have let go off? take matters into ur own hands... dun just stick to human thoughts. pray, and work things out. i just didnt see the reason to hate me anymore...
are friends so important to u? being a sore person, i will say: one day, u'll realise what's the true meaning of losing everyone, and only having God."
obviously, u never tried wearing my shoes right? u stab me, yet u never felt its pain...

i've lost everything.
whatever i have now, is bonus. BONUS.
so long as what is right and God is in mind...

but now, i really, sincerely hope everything's alright. a part of me knows there's a barrier thats thickening everyday... something i wont be able to break unless i really have to resort to last measures... and i really dont want to.
i'll be praying a lot for you, cause brother, we were brothers. we separated, and since we are for the glory of god, why not be brothers again? if this simple request u cant even fufil, then i hate to say it, but ur a fake too. fakes everywhere. even u know what a fake is.

a part of me hopes u'll read this, but a part of me hopes you wont. whatever it is, it is your decision... i have chosen already, but it takes 2 hands to clap...

is the gap getting smaller? or issit heat just expanding the solid parts?

Posted by keithc at 8:14 AM