Friday, May 18, 2007

all results

fine, since everyone's blogging about their results i see no reason to act cool and hold back from letting the world know how crapped up i am too.

firstly, if you chance upon this blog, u'd either be thinking "no this guy is not in my category, he should be out of our league" or "at least someone's doing worser then me, heng ah..."

dun deny it, its true right? even if u are a close friend, one can never deny thoughts like these cross your mind.

whoever blogged about Bs... please dont. whoever blogged about himself deserving to die, deserving to _______ please dont. cause i only had 2 b4s... and CHINESE was one of them so please spare me. i read ppl's blogs just to know more about them, and yet i find myself drifting further. telling myself "nope this ppl are so different. is there no one that is in my situation?" but yes, there is someone in my situation. you all know who too, but you all never gave a shit about us right.

L1R5 32, hope that's enough for you. (nice rhyme)
its also up to you to think if i tried my best. i shall give u an honest analysis, up to u to believe too.

i woke up 2 weeks before the exams. but was still busy so i started studying on the friday 2 weeks before exams.

tried moving into the bb room... everyday staying back til rather late, (except sundays of course) just trying to do a maths tys. first time i did this too.. broke some barriers. yes, i felt proud of myself but still... its just not enough!

did A LOT of a maths. some chem. neglected E maths, physics, english, chinese.
chiong geog on last day. hecked SS. covered bio syllabus on last day.

everyday was steady, until amaths and chem were over. i had no drive to do anything last min for physics, e math and bio prac.

dunno how i passed e math and physics.. making my two C5s.
english C6. honesly, i thought it was a tough paper.. if u thought it was easy just close this blog pls.
emath was not hard, but i didnt do anything since the previous e math lesson. so what can i expect.
bio was SO DISSAPPOINTING! thought can get b3... 64.5 also. oh well i deserved it.
chinese was my only improvement, with a b4. and i owe it all to ian (who provides me with neccessary competition and encouragement) and xu lao shi.. she's the best.
chem failed. nothing to say also, 'im just so lost for chem.
a maths WAS THE HUGEST REGRET I MADE. there i was trying not to disappoint miss lee, trying to prove something different, that i made an effort. but after this, it'll be back to square one. miss lee will continue. my tuitor will continue. my dad will ask me to drop a maths, or dun focus on it at all.

so were u thinking of what i suspected? i dun care, you did. so ur not the worst, pls rmb. i hope to at least use my results to encourage some of you, if it can. and this is to ppl who did their best. i did too, for the 1+weeks.

and if u got it, or at least suspected it. i'm at war with myself, and people around me. i cant stand fakeness so please mean what you say. and be sensitive. i'm as emo too, but i'm clinging on to god. thats why i have not cried, or cut, or wadever i wanted to do when i realised

what the situation in class is after thursday, and where i stood in class..

to those people in class. i dun hate all of you. but please just dont talk to me. i am a danger to myself and you.

i just wanna wait til i get better.

Posted by keithc at 8:23 PM