Sunday, March 18, 2007
would you care ANYWAY (random ranting)
recently i've had my break from friends... and i realised. or is this just another doubt. no one really cares.
i got friends that i made effort to double click on msn though i dun feel like...
ex-church mates whom i just sms to bother finding out how they're doing...
sticking my nose into ppl's lives when i know they're troubled and no one's there for them and yet i'm not a very close friend also...
i find myself like a busybody. an outsider... i'm not needed la honestly. i feel like just living my life without anyone... cause suddenly my friends feel distant. (ok maybe its the holidays, with e homework, and o levels in mind... yes yes... true also la)
and yet i can only currently think of one person that has done all those for me...
but i think there are a few more. however, there are these stupid doubts all swimming around in my head... i'm forced to think negative.
and i onli blog negative anyway.
if i blogged that i was troubled, and u chanced upon this blog, would u care.
if i failed everything and ur doing extremely well. would you care. even if u cared would u help.
even if u helped. how much will you help?
grant my heart this love it needs lord jesus, so i wont feel empty.
keep sustaining me.
and i'll keep praying for my friends. whom i'm currently doubting.
and i'll pray for myself to stop being emo... cause u've given me more then i can ask for.
no matter what i'm feeling now, thanks for everything.. thats for sure...
pray also for less screwing around and more focus.
in jesus name, amen.
Posted by keithc at 8:11 AM
