Wednesday, September 06, 2006

SS day 1: "fairfield is in this land of lalalalala" <----so true?? i've learnt...

hello again! hahhaa.... today theres a post!! and no! its not term 4 yet. why am i blogging then?? cause...

ITS A POST THAT I FEEL IS IMPORTANT, AND SPECIAL REGARDING TODAY.

today was day 1 of study skills, the adam khoo course we are actually attenting for the 3 days. overall, more entertaining then enriching, since its the 1st warm-up day. speakers were pro and clever. also, i feel very sincere, which is a quality they SHOULD have if people were to pay 1000+ for 3 days....(outside school of course). they all speak with something in them, that they want us to do well.. which is purely the purpose.. i take my hat off to adam khoo without worrying wad other people say about my hair beneath it.

the first speaker was the rashem dude... i felt he's a very experienced guy.. been there done that and seen many people as well... wad he said in the morning made full sense to me... about the poor kids, how lucky we are, how the world is like and how we should be living not for the sake of studying or other people.

he said lots about other leading schools and the unity they share, about how ENTHU they are about learning, courses... (sounds so idealistic yeah) however i feel that opened a new mind in me, that if we ARE really like that, treating learning as seriously as playing a team game of serious soccer, learning would stick in my head and we can all learn better! makes sense right?? and its not LAME or wadever, its just a whole new perspective we arent used to! see other schs are doing it.

ramesh felt disappointed, he didnt elaborate, but he said something that made PEOPLE LAUGH, THOUGH I DIN FEEL IT WAS JOKEY OR FUNNY AT ALL.
he said fairfield people are like this happy lot, living in a lalalla world. having fun, and where life is rich, fufiling and well education system's actually good. people were laughing at this point, cause maybe his accent was funny? but i got a real serious message, and that is even though we all seem likable, "nice people" yes, that i agree, but deep inside is that how we really are? why are we still engrossed over material things? woo fairfield is a christian school. we are christians we worship one god. we love him yeah THAT I AGREE. then why are we spending $100+ on a bloody sling bag or branded shoes and pencil boxes? why do we seem to be popular when we are just trying to catch other people's attention? are we SO OUTGOING, SO LIKABLE, SO ACCEPTABLE? i really dunno. does god really speak to these ppl???? God created us to LIKE PEOPLE, not get people to like us. i used to TRY to be likable yeah, but since quite a long time ago i gave up. i just wanted to heck everyone. that's a reason why i quit friendster, cause i realised in order to get people to write nice things for me, i have to write for them. if i dun like writing and find it a chore to keep replying, WHY DO I STILL CONTINUE? so heck. i'm me i like it.

to me, i dun have to be so impressive.. i just nid some friends, a closer lot, a commitee where i can talk and share my deepest darkest secrets with and to comfort.. this is how we grow stronger in our faith and get over our dark times.. i'm sure everyone would aspire to have close friends...

wad about the girl i was crazy over? was it love? yes until now i still stick to it, i really loved her. but its juz too bad that we juz cant be together... well now i've realised the truth on bgr, and its that we should hang out with friends more... enjoy and expose.

soo i'm CONFIDENT ramesh was right.. many ppl i know, or in fairfield sec3 have the multiple split personalities.. i have too! i get sad, yeah feel bad. sometimes serious, sometimes just hyper. my hyper isn't fake, it just doesn last long... hence yeah i'm a moody person... i just have to control or hurt someone.
hence i really urge fairfield ppl... search ur true self again, and give the world wads in you, really. for the sincere self will always be better then wads fake.

i dun wanna realise one day my friends are all gay dont i? so might as well hit me with it now then in 5 years down the road..

okok pls post ur comments on my tagbox... would really appreciate it. and just tell me u hate my post if u do k?

yours sincerely,
keith.coldplaying.

Posted by keithc at 8:35 AM