Saturday, September 23, 2006

exam stress+ friendly issues

hihi... i'm blogging YET AGAIN. haz this few weeks have been really horrible, cause of the upcoming exams. its sunday, and exactly 1 week from now i'll be sitting for my EOYs... the time's 3pm, and i have wasted 3 hours doing nothing but on the com and guitaring.

WHY

cause i cant take it... its sian. whole day take book and see. the feeling's repetitive. boring. monotonous. i rather do drill in the hot sun.

also, my mood hasnt been good. ahh i hate to admit it, but come to think of it its like pms. every little thing affects me. how hot the classroom is, how green our chem teacher is, how disgusted i am that topics are still taught at the last day of the week. (physics/sound and chem/redox for 3F) friggin screwed la.

i kept praying this whole week.. and i think its not tt god's not doing anything for me, its just tt i'm not motivated enough to make myself work.

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alright, now for the emo part.
recently we have been planning for something... but due to some miscommunications, jacon and i did the wrong thing...
honestly up till now, i still think. why cant we let go of certain things?

my buddies have been blogging as well... typing messages of hate, agony... stuff like "DAMN YOU SHITFACE BASKET I HATE U" stuff like these... its all painful to read and type and then after posting reading them again right? we should learn to let go and accept things... even though they suck. at the most we boycott systems like these la... friends like these also can DAO one wad... wad happened to god's mercy and "i'll forgive u" and stuff? CHILL GUYS!
maybe everyone should seriously listen to coldplay. it really makes me more lax.

recently there has been lotsa confessions as well... wenjie said he hated all of us in sec1... LOL. i promise u wenjie, i'll never do tt joke again.
also, fenando has a MAJOR CONFESSION HE TOLD ME. too bad, u guys will never know it in a million years. if it leaks, my life's at stake.
tuck yan told me on msn... something tt made me real happy to have him back as a super close friend? i know some things are un-doable, tuck, but we can always start again with the rest... i think ur really nice..
shuyi too... and then kueider... its like everyone's revealing his/her true self now.

my true self's not really nice... cause if i release myself, its just me, and the world. there's no god. there's no friends. and i'll just turn cold..
i cant do this ever again..

friends are getting distant, and the real world out there is finally seeping into some of our lives... guys, if ur reading this, maybe its time to do something? say a quick apology, like me.. and everything will be alright again. sometimes, face has to be put aside. speak your mind, let everything blow over. and in time to come, everyone will forgive everyone again...
dun blog about it. its the same as backstab, but u run around the person 2 times before doing so. (if u dun get wad i mean, it just means tell the person straight.)

but if ur the one in the wrong... it would be wise to seek god and pray first, before asking another friend, and then making a sincere apology...

one more thing... if u have friends that may be wrong... always do the right thing. tell them what u feel. straight, and dont delay it. things will worsen if u do... even if it means a cold relationship for a whole week, always do what's right.

a confrontation is NECCESSARY!
BE A MAN/woMAN, DO THE RIGHT THING!


loving u guys as much as i ever did,
keith.coldplaying.

Posted by keithc at 12:04 AM